Falling Off and Getting Back On

No one is perfect.  Especially me.  I fell off my own organization wagon.   I was so energized for 2 or 3 months.  Usually my grand ideas only last a week or so.  But this changes was lasting and I loved it.

 But then life happened. 

Unexpected changes (Insert your Own, new diagnoses, job change, moving, etc.) that I was not ready to accept.  So I lived in the land of denial for a few weeks.  That is never good.  I tried to ignore my unwanted change but that was not helping at all.  

I still functioned.  But I wasn't on top of things like the good old glory months.  Then the craziest weeks of the school year was upon me*. 

How do I get back to being in relaxed control.  I wanted to have that peace like a river.  Always in motion but peaceful and calm not harried. 

So I read this by David Allen:  "Circumstances that seem the most out of our control and grief producing . . . can catch us off guard."

"To get a grip, what must you do?  First accept what the game is." See the target.  "But even if you know where you are headed, you will still feel paralyzed and at the mercy of forces larger than yourself, until you do one thing: determine the next move."

You are no longer the victim of your circumstances.  You have chosen to act.  You believe you can do something. 

"When the world has shifted on you in whatever way, what would success NOW mean for you, and what activity will move you NOW in that direction?  It's very easy to fall into the trap of thinking that the game shouldn't have changed and that the old rules still should apply."

OK.  So I'm in a new game now.  I will have to learn some new rules, but I can do it.  I will get back from self-doubt thinking, "I can't do it all" and say to myself "I can do something."  (hopefully it only takes 2 minutes.)

*A family camping trip, a seniors luncheon, sewing easter dresses, big sewing projects for one class and two different school operas a week apart.